Grief
As I have walked this journey of moving beyond the diagnosis there are times grief comes up.
When that happens I sometimes focus on what I have lost:
Consistency in my days, the ones that pain keeps me from doing what I want to.
Movement without thinking. Especially the days that I have nerve pain and I cannot feel my feet.
A body I can trust to do what I want or need it to do on days I fall.
On days my brain isn’t a jerk I focus on what I have gained.
Things like:
Learning to listen to my body and what it needs in the moment.
Gratitude for movement from place to place without a fall.
An excellent team of medical providers, fellow travelers, coaches and mentors who help me see all I can still do.
Most of all the community I have found who love me unconditionally even on the days I am not my best self.
On the days that grief says hello, I am learning to think about how my diagnosis has been a blessing.
Let me know the ways grief has been a blessing to you.
"You cannot prevent the birds of sorrow from flying over your head, but you can prevent them from building nests in your hair." ~Old Chinese proverb